Para Kay Elysse

*i'm beginning to fall, more and more, in love with HER everyday.

Ngayon palang nakikini-kinita ko na ang magiging halaga mo sa buhay ko. Kung papaanong hindi pa man kita nakikita’y nahuhulog na ang loob ko sa’yo; animo’y balang araw daragdagan mo pa ang saysay ng mundo. Kung ano pa man ang nagawa kong mahusay para ikaw ang syang ibigay ay ipinagpapasalamat kong lubos.

Ngayon palang pinapangarap ko na ang iyong mga ngiti. Kahit pa imposibleng paraan para mapasaya ka ay iniisip ko nang malalim. Laging pinaplanong masaluhan ka sa lahat ng pait at giyera ng daigdig; pantasya kong tinig mo na’y marinig. Kung papaanong magniningning o iirap ang mga mata mo’y palaisipan kong parati.

Ngayon palang pangako ko nang magiging lakas mo ako’t takbuhan. Kahit ilang bagyo pa’y sasamahan kitang sumuong at umalpas; tatabihan kitang humiling sa mga tala at mabighani sa buwan. Kapag kulimlim ang langit mo, ako ang sayo’y aalalay; balang araw mararamdaman mo rin itong dakila kong pagmamahal.

And We’re A Day Closer Into Meeting The Little MISS!

Updates? Hmmm, to start off… I’m looking more pregnant everyday, finally! I was just excited to wear maternity clothes and now I can actually buy them.

*here's a proof of my ever-growing belly

Since I still feel super active, the mister and I plan “mini-weekend-getaways” every now and then. We make it a point to be a little laid-back, though. Like relaxing on a resort hotel, going on a date and eating out, or simply watching a movie. I realized that some couples nowadays tend to take for granted how it is to be husbands and wives because they’re too overwhelmed by family life. That’s why we made a pact to never forget our “us time”. We’re blessed that my family is here to help us out in rearing our soon-to-be child.

During my last appointment, my OB-Gyne told us that we’re having a girl! She’s actually moving a lot now, especially at night! I’m becoming more familiar with her sleeping patterns. I’m happy that Vince can feel her squirming too. Unlike before when he was thinking that she’s totally ignoring him.

At first, we preferred to have a little guy but after knowing that my initial glucose test and some abnormality exam turned out to be both negative, we were just in bliss. We’re so grateful that our daughter is growing healthy, we couldn’t ask for more.

After all, a “mini-me” sounds VERY enticing! Don’t you think?! ;]

Flaws and All

Looking back my past entries, I realized I haven’t spoken about my relationship with the mister as much as I talked about him when weren’t married yet. I used to write love letter-like blogs before every so often. (and now, I’m going to try and concoct one!) I was inspired when Regine Velasquez sang Beyonce’s Flaws and All for Ogie last Sunday. I cannot stop thinking of its lyrics. It’s simple yet direct to the point. (Esp. on the “I’m a bitch in the afternoon” part! Haha!)

Since our wedding on February, our life has been on a whirlwind of change. We moved to our own apartment a couple of months ago; we begin doing things inseparably; we never miss eating dinner together; sometimes we watch the same reality shows and actually enjoy it! (Not to mention that we’re counting the days to finally meet our little one.)

The mister doesn’t care if once in a while I look wasted at night (note: without alcohol!). Sometimes I’m too tired to even blow dry my hair so he’ll help me do it. He has not failed to wash the dishes and to take out the trash (because he knows that I don’t like doing those things that much). He tolerates my mood swings and understands my inconsistent emotions due to hormonal surges. I have these pointless arguments now and then while he remains calm and ready to give me a hug.

In short, he accepts me flaws and all (just like the lyrics of the song). And this for me is married life; it’s much about pure unconditional love/commitment. I know we have yet to learn so many things but I’m contented that right now we’re doing a lot of progress.

Off To The Next Trimester

I got past the first trimester, thank God!

I’m looking forward to those less-morning-sickness days, as promised. Everybody is anticipating for the baby bump. (Mine’s still small but I can see that it’s starting to come out.) My appetite is just the same – uncontrollable! It just feels so good when I crave for something and then I get it right away. Like it’s the most delicious food I’ve ever eaten in my life. Right now, I always go for potatoes. I don’t know why but I love french fries and hash browns. Weird because I didn’t believe that you can actually salivate for a particular food, but here I am, always trying to get my hands on those oh-so-great baked potatoes.

Aside from the usual “pregnant-hood” stuff, I am experiencing something deeper. Sometimes I catch myself thinking how magical it is to carry a child. Imagining how the baby grows and survives inside my own body gives me goosebumps. I’m in awe just by realizing that I’m being a part of His marvelous plan to create life.

Okay I better stop before I burst into tears (FYI, unavoidable dramatic episodes are acceptable when you’re expecting! :D).

Hay, I’m getting hungry again.

Weight Un-Conscious

I’m now on my eighth week of pregnancy and boy oh boy, my appetite has never been this crazy! I eat a lot even before but now it’s totally out of control. I’m literally hungry every two hours. That’s the average time for food to metabolize, I know. I can’t help it or else my stomach would growl.

Lately I’m not so much into coffee. I can still drink decaf but it doesn't appeal to my tastebuds like before. Plus it makes me more acidic and nauseous. I eat a lot of bread and sweets, to think that I’m not a dessert person. I have unusual cravings for meat and sometimes whatever I see on TV or mentioned in Facebook by a friend would be my next obsession.

Frankly, this is the first time in my life that I do not care about weight. (Though, once in a while I complain of looking ‘rounder’ than ever!) I just know I have every right to gain all of these excess pounds. I believe it to be a part of this wonderful experience.

And the mister thinks that I’m still beautiful, he always tells me so.