Looking back my past entries, I realized I haven’t spoken about my relationship with the mister as much as I talked about him when weren’t married yet. I used to write love letter-like blogs before every so often. (and now, I’m going to try and concoct one!) I was inspired when Regine Velasquez sang Beyonce’s Flaws and All for Ogie last Sunday. I cannot stop thinking of its lyrics. It’s simple yet direct to the point. (Esp. on the “I’m a bitch in the afternoon” part! Haha!)
Since our wedding on February, our life has been on a whirlwind of change. We moved to our own apartment a couple of months ago; we begin doing things inseparably; we never miss eating dinner together; sometimes we watch the same reality shows and actually enjoy it! (Not to mention that we’re counting the days to finally meet our little one.)
The mister doesn’t care if once in a while I look wasted at night (note: without alcohol!). Sometimes I’m too tired to even blow dry my hair so he’ll help me do it. He has not failed to wash the dishes and to take out the trash (because he knows that I don’t like doing those things that much). He tolerates my mood swings and understands my inconsistent emotions due to hormonal surges. I have these pointless arguments now and then while he remains calm and ready to give me a hug.
In short, he accepts me flaws and all (just like the lyrics of the song). And this for me is married life; it’s much about pure unconditional love/commitment. I know we have yet to learn so many things but I’m contented that right now we’re doing a lot of progress.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Off To The Next Trimester
I got past the first trimester, thank God!
I’m looking forward to those less-morning-sickness days, as promised. Everybody is anticipating for the baby bump. (Mine’s still small but I can see that it’s starting to come out.) My appetite is just the same – uncontrollable! It just feels so good when I crave for something and then I get it right away. Like it’s the most delicious food I’ve ever eaten in my life. Right now, I always go for potatoes. I don’t know why but I love french fries and hash browns. Weird because I didn’t believe that you can actually salivate for a particular food, but here I am, always trying to get my hands on those oh-so-great baked potatoes.
Aside from the usual “pregnant-hood” stuff, I am experiencing something deeper. Sometimes I catch myself thinking how magical it is to carry a child. Imagining how the baby grows and survives inside my own body gives me goosebumps. I’m in awe just by realizing that I’m being a part of His marvelous plan to create life.
Okay I better stop before I burst into tears (FYI, unavoidable dramatic episodes are acceptable when you’re expecting! :D).
Hay, I’m getting hungry again.
I’m looking forward to those less-morning-sickness days, as promised. Everybody is anticipating for the baby bump. (Mine’s still small but I can see that it’s starting to come out.) My appetite is just the same – uncontrollable! It just feels so good when I crave for something and then I get it right away. Like it’s the most delicious food I’ve ever eaten in my life. Right now, I always go for potatoes. I don’t know why but I love french fries and hash browns. Weird because I didn’t believe that you can actually salivate for a particular food, but here I am, always trying to get my hands on those oh-so-great baked potatoes.
Aside from the usual “pregnant-hood” stuff, I am experiencing something deeper. Sometimes I catch myself thinking how magical it is to carry a child. Imagining how the baby grows and survives inside my own body gives me goosebumps. I’m in awe just by realizing that I’m being a part of His marvelous plan to create life.
Okay I better stop before I burst into tears (FYI, unavoidable dramatic episodes are acceptable when you’re expecting! :D).
Hay, I’m getting hungry again.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Weight Un-Conscious
I’m now on my eighth week of pregnancy and boy oh boy, my appetite has never been this crazy! I eat a lot even before but now it’s totally out of control. I’m literally hungry every two hours. That’s the average time for food to metabolize, I know. I can’t help it or else my stomach would growl.
Lately I’m not so much into coffee. I can still drink decaf but it doesn't appeal to my tastebuds like before. Plus it makes me more acidic and nauseous. I eat a lot of bread and sweets, to think that I’m not a dessert person. I have unusual cravings for meat and sometimes whatever I see on TV or mentioned in Facebook by a friend would be my next obsession.
Frankly, this is the first time in my life that I do not care about weight. (Though, once in a while I complain of looking ‘rounder’ than ever!) I just know I have every right to gain all of these excess pounds. I believe it to be a part of this wonderful experience.
And the mister thinks that I’m still beautiful, he always tells me so.
Lately I’m not so much into coffee. I can still drink decaf but it doesn't appeal to my tastebuds like before. Plus it makes me more acidic and nauseous. I eat a lot of bread and sweets, to think that I’m not a dessert person. I have unusual cravings for meat and sometimes whatever I see on TV or mentioned in Facebook by a friend would be my next obsession.
Frankly, this is the first time in my life that I do not care about weight. (Though, once in a while I complain of looking ‘rounder’ than ever!) I just know I have every right to gain all of these excess pounds. I believe it to be a part of this wonderful experience.
And the mister thinks that I’m still beautiful, he always tells me so.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
You Can Never Find Time For Anything. If You Want Time, You Must Make It.
These words really shook my senses. I started thinking of what my should-make-time to-do list are, I came up with five:
1. …read books again. I’ve always been fascinated with literature. I love stories that are compelling and could challenge my brain cells to function. I miss learning new words and adding them to my vocabulary. It seems that I’m going to have extra minutes soon. I can't wait!
2. …watch sensible/worthy films religiously (again!). Before, I used to pop a good DVD whenever I get the chance. Now that I haven’t for the longest time, my must-see list is getting longer. I remember the days when I’m able to see 3 movies in one sitting. Then do my own ‘critic’ afterwards. Like my passion for books, films keep my mind active.
3. …travel. On our humble beginnings, the mister and I spend time on weekends only. We are almost 2-hr drive apart so whenever we meet up we make it a point to go somewhere we’ve never been; being the adventurous couple that we are. It doesn’t require it to be an extravagant roadtrip; just driving side-by-side and enjoying each other company. Perhaps we could squeeze in little trips once in a while since my situation is limited.
4. …catch up with my friends and family. One of the essentials that most people fail to realize is making time for loved ones. We know that they’re just there but isn’t it more thoughtful to be regularly updated with how they’ve been? I will always remind myself of this task because I don’t want to be like others who neglect amazing relationships and regret in the end.
5. …(the hardest but the most crucial of all) be the wife that the mister ever needs and be the mommy that my little one should/must have when he/she comes out seven and a half months from now. Why I made this the top priority is because the transformation would not happen if I don’t will it to. I could slack in my own selfish world, not adjusting to my present condition; I know that the mister would love me no matter what. But I am aware since we got married that I now have the responsibility to be a partner, included in this is the openness to be childbearing. I maybe experiencing being a wife -- cooking for us, organizing the house, budgeting our resources etc and I want to excel more in this role; but to be a mother (except for the morning sickness that happens to attack even on noon and night!, back pains, and ravenous appetite) I don’t have any particular hands-on on record. I admit I’m not 100% ready until I’m there in that exact situation. For now, it’s enough that I have the conscious decision to make time for it.
1. …read books again. I’ve always been fascinated with literature. I love stories that are compelling and could challenge my brain cells to function. I miss learning new words and adding them to my vocabulary. It seems that I’m going to have extra minutes soon. I can't wait!
2. …watch sensible/worthy films religiously (again!). Before, I used to pop a good DVD whenever I get the chance. Now that I haven’t for the longest time, my must-see list is getting longer. I remember the days when I’m able to see 3 movies in one sitting. Then do my own ‘critic’ afterwards. Like my passion for books, films keep my mind active.
3. …travel. On our humble beginnings, the mister and I spend time on weekends only. We are almost 2-hr drive apart so whenever we meet up we make it a point to go somewhere we’ve never been; being the adventurous couple that we are. It doesn’t require it to be an extravagant roadtrip; just driving side-by-side and enjoying each other company. Perhaps we could squeeze in little trips once in a while since my situation is limited.
4. …catch up with my friends and family. One of the essentials that most people fail to realize is making time for loved ones. We know that they’re just there but isn’t it more thoughtful to be regularly updated with how they’ve been? I will always remind myself of this task because I don’t want to be like others who neglect amazing relationships and regret in the end.
5. …(the hardest but the most crucial of all) be the wife that the mister ever needs and be the mommy that my little one should/must have when he/she comes out seven and a half months from now. Why I made this the top priority is because the transformation would not happen if I don’t will it to. I could slack in my own selfish world, not adjusting to my present condition; I know that the mister would love me no matter what. But I am aware since we got married that I now have the responsibility to be a partner, included in this is the openness to be childbearing. I maybe experiencing being a wife -- cooking for us, organizing the house, budgeting our resources etc and I want to excel more in this role; but to be a mother (except for the morning sickness that happens to attack even on noon and night!, back pains, and ravenous appetite) I don’t have any particular hands-on on record. I admit I’m not 100% ready until I’m there in that exact situation. For now, it’s enough that I have the conscious decision to make time for it.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Choosing My Battles... Wisely!
Sometimes I fight until the end but there are those instances that I know I just have to surrender for me to win my peace. Some aren’t worth the time so why bother; some are too shallow to even ponder about. I think that in my 26 years of existence I’m already aware which wars are deserving of my efforts. I barely sweat on unavoidable complexities, petty qualms, and even transitory relationships. All because I already learned that no matter hard I drive myself, in the end I just have to let go and let God.
Everything is different now that I’m up against the greatest challenge in my life (to date!). I catch myself as my own nemesis at certain moments. The plans I’m more than determined to break and soon to create to fulfill my mission. Oh the things I gave up and I’m so willing to give up for its goodness sake.
Six weeks and growing.
Everything is different now that I’m up against the greatest challenge in my life (to date!). I catch myself as my own nemesis at certain moments. The plans I’m more than determined to break and soon to create to fulfill my mission. Oh the things I gave up and I’m so willing to give up for its goodness sake.
Six weeks and growing.
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